Cherished Charms

If the house is ever on fire I pray these make it out safely. Admittedly unprepossessing, they are my childhood stuffed toys. The doll I named Margie after my older cousin whom I thought the most beautiful of girls, and Rory, cause elephants roar, get it? Um, right. Mom made the little dress for Margie out of a scrap of fabric and I think I sewed on the one blue button for an eye for Rory. This photo op has me looking at them with a critical eye and seeing they are overdo for some restoration efforts, maybe even new outfits. lol

Second Choice

I was not a “cool” kid in high school, and, though I had run through a fair number of dates, I never had a long-term boyfriend. As prom time approached my senior year, I desperately wanted to attend that rite of passage, but things were not looking good. My two best friends had been in long-term relationships for years and I had no prospects in sight. So when word got back to me that the captain of the swim team had been turned down by his first choice, I started buzzing around him in Chemistry class. He seemed nice enough and no one else loomed on the horizon.

John took the bait and asked me out on a first date. We went to the movies, all went well and the precious prom date was proffered! I was overjoyed. I already had the dress, shoes, purse…no purchases necessary. Hair appointment, check! So much excitement, left school early that day for hair, home for make-up, John showed up for the obligatory photos and off we went for dinner. I felt like Cinderella going to the ball. We danced with the best of the them, but it had been a long day.

We were invited to a post-prom party with several other couples at Debbie’s, one of my best friends, who happened to live in my neighborhood. But after starting the day early at school, then the hair appointment and all the other prom excitement, I just ran out of gas and really did turn into Cinderella at midnight. John might have thought he was going to get some action that night, but I demurred and begged off. I couldn’t stay awake. For all his expense, he got a quick goodnight kiss at the door and my prom night was over. My hair was still fairly intact the next day and my dad took a few more photos of me alone outside in my backyard…couldn’t waste the hairdo.

Senior year was almost over and John barely spoke to me again. But at least I got to the prom.

 

Moving Poem

So I am thinking…

 

I need to look at everything

in this house that

holds 31 years of marriage

and two grown children’s

archives,

and ask this

51 year old

almost single

self

what do you need?

Which books of 5 full book cases

do you have to have near you?

Which wall hanging/photos

are touchstones of your

equilibrium and peace?

How to condense

whole phrases

into power words…

OH…

A poem.

 

The apartment is lovely

but a 4th of what a house holds.

And I know it is good

I know my closets

and shelves and dressers

are brim full of

Yes, but-clothes

Yes, but its missing a button

Yes, but its too tight around here

Yes but I have no shoes to go with it.

As I survey for

the essential

I realize how over-stuffed

my existence is

with things

and photos

and art

and momentos

and on the other side

of this somewhat

painful, slicing

process

is

truer, crisper

Freedom.

Keeping and Letting Go

What I find I keep is my memories, my dreams and sometimes things that I wish I could forget. ....I keep an old bird's nest that I found with a small feather resting in it.
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