Dream time

Awaken to the Dream

Long before we are

birthed to this life,

to these bodies, 

someone dreams us

into existence.

These ethereal threads

that are woven

throughout our life

hold the patterns, 

warp and weave

of the holy meaning to

our days and nights.

When the sacred spinning,

the endless calling that 

finally finds voice

in these magical

colorful carpets 

of past and future,

finally find’s our 

ear’s silent and still heart,

the awakening to the dream

brings full moments 

of fulfillment.

Heavy beats of the clock

then encompass the no time

of standing in the shining role

we are born to:

to be completely, 

entirely,

wholly, 

ourselves.

 

 

 

 

Speak My Dreams

I speak my dreams and in

The saying of them

While still groggy with sleep

I often know

What each symbol 

Relates to in my waking mind

He reminds me that it 

Is OK to stay in process

To not seek to analyze

Or wrap up the mystery

In a package of “I know”

As it is in the “unknowing”

That the space abides

For the deepest living

Of the 

Delicious

Often achingly

Beautiful

Incredibly powerful

unfolding moment

 

 

My Dreaming Babe

Now that you’re sleeping…

An angelic glow surrounds your tiny face

All traces of mischief and orneriness vanish

The tiny creases of concentration and anxiety relax

Into mere memories of lines

Your eyelashes lengthen to an almost absurd length

And the pout of your tiny mouth is irresistible,

A dream smile tugging at the corners

The sweetness of this small respite in your abundant energy,

Your push to learn, observe, touch, taste, and try,

Temporarily put on hold for such a short time

As your body dictates

Oh God, what beauty on your face-

I almost wake you as I bend to kiss 

My dreamin’ babe

 

 

Armageddon

I dreamed about Armageddon last night.

It started as a bad storm, 

like the movies

the sky was dark,

the wind and water grew 

to a terrifying velocity

electricity filled the air with sharp cracks of thunder

pierced by sharped-tounged lightning 

that exploded blindingly on the ground

in the dream I could smell

an acute acrid odor 

that burned the nostrils and

informed those still alive–

                   there was no escape.

I wound up in a dark shelter with people I didn’t know

from all different cultures, languages and viewpoints

I tried to comfort in that mom-forehead-stroking way

but one bedraggled man I was reaching toward 

had lost everything, 

                                      everyone

and his eyes reflected no desire for life.

Then a small boy was pounding at the portal to the humid room

where we all huddled.

He simply crawled up next to the man,

the man’s arms wrapped around the boy without words

and tears streamed down

the man’s haunted, shadowed face

for his loss, 

and the boy’s.

I moved on to tend others who feared

                     what might come next.

 

 

 

Dream of Awakening

I dreamed last night

that I was attempting

to explain 

to a young teacher

how a child

begins to put the world together 

We were standing by a bush

I asked her to sense

the outer boundaries

of leaf,

branch

root 

spaces between

fragrance

warmth

relationship

to insect

air

sun

earth

us

This led to

the miracle

of sight

and how it blinds us

the miracle of sound

and how it can keep us from

hearing the heart of 

what is being communicated

the miracle of breath

and how we exchange

it,

the miracle of touch

and how we must 

screen out

and focus attention

in order to go 

beyond perception

to understanding

over and over again

as we expand

and contract

taking in 

what feels new

and sorting, 

comparing,

sifting, 

and finding a place for the new to fit,

or more, 

to fill the spaces 

where losing understanding

may leave giant gaping holes

It was beyond beautiful.

I awoke to this wondrous world,

watching, smelling, tasting, hearing

touching, sensing

cold air on my face

birds in trees,

ocean waves crashing,

people in cars,

the hunger in my belly,

the tears in my eyes

the joyful yearning

I remembered,

once again, 

how our unique 

existence in our own 

perceptions of  the planet

is a rare and precious thing

I am trying to hold onto that

in these words-

trying to offer that 

to those who want to

remember too.

Sheltering in Place

Sheltering in Place

Back in early February – which now seems a lifetime ago  – my husband Danny was told by his cardiologist that he would need surgery to correct a blocked carotid artery.  Of course I couldn’t resist chiding him that years of unhealthy snacking had finally caught up with him.

Danny’s surgery was set for Tuesday, March 31 at New York’s Mount Sinai Hospital.  The surgeon was confident all would go well and  Danny would be fully recovered in time for trips we had planned for April and May.  And in June we anticipated heading up to our country house in Connecticut for the summer.

What we didn’t anticipate was Covid 19.

And so as things spiraled down and the pandemic threat was suddenly a reality,  and with New York City as the probable epicenter,  our son Noah urged us to try to get an earlier surgery date.

I knew the surgeon operated on Tuesdays only,  and so I feared his schedule would be full.  But ironically because of Covid 19,  an out-of-town medical conference was cancelled giving him another operating day.   So much to our relief,  Danny’s surgery was moved to March 17,  St Patrick’s Day.  James Joyce-lover that I am,  I felt that was a good omen!

And so early that rainy St Paddy’s morning Noah and I drove Danny to Mount Sinai.  Noah took him in to be admitted,  but couldn’t stay very long –  the Covid no-visitor policy was already in affect.

As I waited in the car,  I  watched dozens of health care workers hurrying through the rain,  some leaving the hospital after their night shift,  others going in to start their day   Most wore the same green scrubs,  but as this was New York –   and hopefully this is still America  –  under their hoodies,  rain hats and  umbrellas,  I saw the faces of men and women of all creeds and colors.

Thankfully Danny’s surgery went well,  and the day after he was discharged we packed our car.  took our cat,  and drove to Connecticut to hunker down indefinitely,  all our best-laid plans now on hold.

The other day Danny and I went out on our deck to catch the sun.  The air was nippy and I brought wool throws for our laps.

Let’s imagine we’re sitting on deck chairs on a grand ocean liner heading for an exotic port.”  said my husband.

”As long as it’s not the Titanic!”,   I said.

Stay safe,  and safe harbor everyone!

– Dana Susan Lehrman