Nicky

My father and I were crazy about dogs. My mother was terrified of them. All my lobbying fell on deaf ears for years. Finally, my brother was off to college and I was a lonely 14 year old.

Evidently, my mother had had an interesting discussion with an aunt while I was at school one day in 1966. At the time, Aunt Roz and Uncle Roy, one of my dad’s numerous brothers, had a pure-bred miniature French poodle named Jacques. Their older son, my cousin Steve, was an optician with a client who wanted, but couldn’t afford, contact lenses. She had a female poodle named Penny. They decided to breed the dogs and with the money made selling the puppies, the client could afford the lenses and Steve got pick of the litter. The puppies had been born, there were five in the litter, and were evidently very cute. “Don’t tell Kenny or Betsy”, my aunt warned. “You know they’ll want one”.

My mother never could keep a secret. She blurted out the whole conversation as soon as I arrived home and Saturday we were looking at the puppies. There was only female in the litter, Steve had picked her. I picked a precocious male. We lived in Huntington Woods, this was a French poodle and there were five in the litter. I was only in first year French class and didn’t yet know the French word for “woods”, so we named him “Nicole de Forêt”, or Nickel (because his mother was “Penny” and he was one of five) of the “forest”, but I meant woods, I just didn’t know how to say it in French. That was his American Kennel Club name, but we called him Nicky and he was adorable. His puppy fur was black with silver peaking through. We never gave him a fancy poodle cut; always left his fur in a puppy cut, as the silver took over from the black.

My mother was still fearful, so my dad took Nicky to his car dealership one day a week, to give my mother a day off (she wasn’t good with human babies either). Poodles are known to be smart and Nicky certainly was, though as a puppy, he teethed on the corners of our kitchen cabinets. But he understood that he was not allowed on any carpeted areas in the house, nor could he come upstairs. If we were all upstairs, he stood at the foot of the steps and keened, but never disobeyed. I was SO happy to have him, but he was my father’s salvation, the only creature who loved him unconditionally and was always happy to see him when he came home at night.

If my father and I had something important to talk about, we took Nicky for a walk. When my father wanted to escape from the house, he’d walk Nicky to his best friend’s, who lived around the corner. Eventually, Nicky’s retinas atrophied and he went blind, which happens in pure-bred poodles. He did alright navigating our home, as long as nothing was moved. I got a frantic call from my mother once. She had left the basement door open. He walked into it and tumbled down the stairs. My dad bought a condo in California and they began spending a month there. It was difficult, but Nicky had to be put down before they went away, as he couldn’t survive outside our home in Huntington Woods.

I missed seeing Nicky on the rare occasions when I returned home, but it broke my father’s heart.

 

Miles ‘Binky’ Davis — coincidence and convergence

Ever confuse coincidence with causality? It can be fun. Somebody you meet on a demo in Madison, Wisconsin shows up at a concert weeks later in San Francisco. Wow! The ex-girlfriend of a city radical materializes unannounced on your rural commune. Both of you are amazed… too weird! People once directed me to the sleeping bag of a kid in Big Sur because they were convinced I was him. I wasn’t, but the kid sure did look like me. Strange!

Over time, the thrill of coincidence can diminish, diluted by the science of causality. The mystery of convergence can dissolve in the growing complexities of life. But this week, right here on Retrospect, I let myself be amazed once again by coincidence and convergence. I had to.

I haven’t been able to visit Retrospect for several weeks. My life had shifted into overdrive again. I’m not talking about murder or mayhem, just the demands of work, an upcoming university strike, projects gone awry, the usual, but — most significantly — since the middle of February we have been trying to save the life of one of our family members, Miles “Binky” Davis, a 25-pound orange tabby cat.

Even with the best of care, we could not pinpoint Miles’ malady or find a cure as his breathing became more labored. Always serene, he slowed but continued to love and be loved. He worked harder to breathe. An x-ray revealed a collapsed lung.

Our vets worked hard, testing tactics. Everybody loved Miles. They wanted him to live as much as we did but… WTF? We juggled faith and science. We extracted fluids, his lung inflated, he began to breathe easier. We put him on steroids and the vets interpreted lab reports. No virus, no cancers. We watched, tested, counted pulses. Daily, momentarily, we gingerly analyzed whether his godlike love of life continued to overcome his difficulties.

At home he rested in the comfort and splendor of his kingdom. Again, he began to fight for breath. We took Miles back to our collaborators, LA’s best animal emergency specialists but Miles gave us the sign… enough. Holding him on our laps, we said goodbye, watched his great spirit quietly disappear in the strife of the clinic’s emergency room. By that time, even the vet was crying.

We gave over this cornerstone of our household to a gentle group of doctors and technicians and floated home through rush-hour traffic.

That night, grieving, I wrote a eulogy to Miles, but — with the battle over — the flu that I had held at bay for a week roared over me like a Malibu breaker. When I surfaced this Monday, I made it through the first lecture and was taking a break when I visited Retrospect for the first time in weeks and discovered the current prompt — Pets. Convergence, coincidence, cause or effect? Who knows?

I don’t know if Miles “Binky” Davis was a pet. I know he was a great physical and spiritual presence in our home and the serene leader of our domestic animal kingdom. Anyway, here’s what I wrote about Miles the night he died, while I drifted in the strange convergence of grief, shock, and illness.


The Young

The Young Miles Davis

Miles “Binky” Davis passed away on Wednesday, March 23, 2016. Thirteen brief years earlier, Miles began his life as a foundling bundle of orange and white fur, no larger than a baby chick. Five  years later, he weighed 25 pounds and was, according to his veterinarian, “built like a linebacker.”

Physical size, although it characterized the noble orange cat, was the least of his accomplishments. By the age of six, Davis had developed an affinity for the trumpet, doubtless inspired by his namesake, the innovative jazz performer and composer.

In order to pursue his musical dream, Miles developed a trumpet valve system that did not require opposable thumbs and a special mouthpiece to accommodate the unique demands of feline armbiture. Davis spent most of his career playing with the Parisian-style cabaret band, the Tilibese Quartet.

In accordance with his serene spirit, Binky effortlessly assumed the heavy responsibility of Wuwu of the Duchy of Beachwood Terrace with grace and aplomb. A master of delegation, Miles placed most of his trust in his Chancellor of the Exchequer and the humans who cohabited the feline-driven Terrace de Bois sur la Plage. Virtually every human who met Miles as Wuwu willingly served him and the kingdom with great respect and devotion.

Miles’ sylfan lover and musical partner, the Siamese beauty Louise Tilibese, served both as singer-songwriter in the Tilibese Quartet and as his most trusted political adviser. It has often been considered remarkable that Miles “Binky” Davis enjoyed such notable success as both musician and secular leader, given his great proclivity for and profound dedication to sleep.

Lest we forget, Binky Davis also provided invaluable editorial assistance to the writers in the Duchy and his presence practically guaranteed literary flow and profundity.

Miles “Binky” Davis will long be cherished for his great power, spirit, and diverse talents.

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