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Most of us have experienced (or perhaps perpetrated) bullying as children or teenagers, but it’s less common at work–or so I thought, until it happened to me. I was one of the lucky 10% to have survived what’s been described as an epidemic of bullying in the workplace.

I gasped when I realized that I was the perfect target for a workplace bully--a textbook case.

The scenario started with events seemingly unrelated to bullying. I had been very satisfied with my editing and writing job at a large company and had been at it for eight years. Initially, I felt fortunate to even get a full-time job at age 53, and soon found that my skills were appreciated and my experience respected. Each year I received excellent performance reviews. Late in my career, I was delighted to be able to use my talents without the need to climb the corporate ladder. I found out I’d been placed on a “keeper” list for employees with a lot of potential.

The company was old school for the Silicon Valley. Although there were occasional layoffs, they tended to be small and surgical, and relatively compassionate as layoffs go. One morning in September 2014, I was working at home on my telecommute day when, without warning, my email exploded and my phone began to ring nonstop. I grabbed my laptop and sped to the office. Bedlam was evident. There had been a huge layoff, indiscriminate and cruel. Our department in particular was decimated, with 40% of the people gone.

A vice president at the New Jersey headquarters had decided, without consulting anyone in the employee ranks, that he could send significant portions of work to India to save money, and had simply gone through a spreadsheet of staff and crossed out those he thought were expendable, without even knowing what our titles meant. To make matters worse, our group had a relatively new director, “Karl,” who disdained our work, disliked our manager, and used the cover of the layoff to get rid of him. Rather like committing a murder while a plane is crashing to be sure you get away with it!

That afternoon, Karl met with us to tell us that he was naming “Dawn” our new manager. Known as ambitious but technically underqualified, Dawn had been managing a small group who maintained the equipment in the scientific laboratories. She was completely unprepared for the complexity of a technical writing and marketing support group that produced thousands of documents per year.

The first few weeks we merely picked up the pieces and tried to train the remote contractors in India, often writing the material ourselves after three attempts with the contractors. (So much for saving money.) I tried to help Dawn by providing information and pointing out roadblocks because the group had been tasked with a large, risky project, and I was concerned about its success.

There the problems began. “I don’t want your problems, give me solutions!” she wrote. (The solutions were way above my pay grade.) Flaming emails became common, belittling in meetings in front of my coworkers, and deliberately trying to separate me from colleagues. Soon I started to avoid Dawn when possible. Thinking it might be in my head, I checked in with trusted people, who said they had noticed.

That’s when I found the website, and everything made sense. I gasped when I realized that I was the perfect target for a workplace bully–a textbook case. An insecure boss often will pick on a respected employee with excellent skills, especially one who doesn’t like to play politics. I took a lot of tips from the website, which reminded me that bullying wasn’t illegal. The odds of surviving were really poor.

Over the next couple of months I tried to avoid Dawn when possible, take a quick stroll outside the building when things got bad, and started seeing a therapist for support, all of which were helpful. At least things didn’t seem to be worse, and I figured I could retire early, although that wasn’t something I’d planned. I distracted myself with the day-to-day work, and later that year received an “average” performance rating from Dawn, with less aggression than she’d shown previously. Not great, not a complete disaster.

A month or two after the performance review, the bullying seemed to lessen, and gradually, over the next few months, stopped. I hadn’t changed my behavior, so something must have happened. I never found out exactly what, but my role involved providing editing services for groups all across the west coast, and I’d helped the scientists and people at the director and VP level, and they might have vouched for me. Also, my coworkers had my back and didn’t succumb to any of Dawn’s pressure.

So, I stayed, and the situation continued to improve to the point that Dawn gave me a “superior” review the next round and wanted to promote me. By this time it was June of 2017, and I was ready to retire, so never took that promotion. Three months later, Dawn was laid off by a new director. As much as I hate what Dawn did, I know that she never asked to be put in that management position to begin with, and upper management takes part of the blame for creating the environment in the first place.

What can be done to either prevent workplace bullying and help the target? The first thing is to go that amazing workplace bullying website for ideas.

  • If you are the target, get validation from your trusted coworkers and friends, and see a therapist if that’s warranted.
  • If you are a coworker of the target, and you observe bullying, say something, and do not give in to additional bullying or isolation of the target. Unfortunately, HR departments are notoriously unreliable about helping with bullying, so this is challenging.
  • If you are a manager, make sure anyone you appoint as a supervisor is really qualified.
  • If you are a senior manager or company CEO, pay attention to your company culture. Some cultures reward aggressive behavior, which can lead to bullying.

Let’s hope workplace bullying, and all other bullying, become extinct. And, a shout out to Kendra, Gary, Gordy, Orya, Marie, Susan, Jeanne, Kevin, Charlene, and all the scientists who supported me during this time. I’m forever grateful!


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I have recently retired from a marketing and technical writing and editing career and am thoroughly enjoying writing for myself and others.

Characterizations: well written


  1. Suzy says:

    Marian, this is a powerful story about workplace bullying. I hope the people you mention in your last paragraph get to read it. It raises questions in my mind about what was going on with Dawn, like what did she hope to gain by treating you that way, and why did she suddenly stop. I’m sure you wonder too. Maybe some day you can track her down and ask her. Thanks for sharing this painful – and recent – experience with us.

    • Marian says:

      Thanks, Suzy. I have a few theories about what was going on with Dawn–partly her personality, and partly about her mentor “Karl,” who was not an ethical person, as I learned later (too complex to go into here). I think Dawn mainly wanted to get some sense of control in a chaotic situation and used her role as manager to “boss” someone around. Recently, as circumstances would have it, I found out where Dawn is currently working, so I could catch up with her. Not sure if I really want to yet, but perhaps in the future.

  2. Betsy Pfau says:

    Valuable story with real life lessons for anyone still out there in the work world, Marian. It could not have been easy to keep your head down and your act together through all of this. I probably would have looked for a new job (though I didn’t work after the age of 35, so who knows). Thank you for sharing this story and summing it up so succinctly.

    • Marian says:

      Right you are, Betsy. In fact, I did look for another job but I was almost 62 at the time, so you can imagine how that went. I would get interviews (after cleverly preparing my resume), but once I went in, the opening would vanish mysteriously. That’s a topic for ageism.

  3. Laurie Levy says:

    This is a powerful story, Marian. I think your suggestions are great and love that your co-workers vouched for you and didn’t fall into the trap of thinking that they needed to line up against you to save their own jobs. When people who don’t understand the company culture take charge, it’s a disaster for morale and for work product. This happens in the education business all of the time.

  4. Marian, I too hope all bullying becomes extinct! But since lots of bullies were themselves bullied, it’s not likely. Bullying is just another form of fear manifesting as power. Ideally, most (clearly not all!) bullies outgrow the need as they mature and make their way through life based on their true strengths. Sounds like that’s what may have happened with Dawn. And you did all the right things…the silver lining is the awareness, education, and support that has evolved.

    • Marian says:

      I doubt bullying will become totally extinct, Barbara, but if it becomes rarer, that would be wonderful. Your comment about Dawn playing to her weaknesses is very astute. At heart she really wasn’t a mean person and had some good qualities.

  5. Thanx for the eye-opener Marian.
    Altho I can’t say I experienced workplace bullying myself, I’ve heard friends describe scenarios similar to what you’ve described.
    Thankfully you survived and then retired, and ain’t retirement grand!

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